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I have decided something: I want to play the role of the eldest son in my family. I’m not exactly sure why. I think that it’s part of me, growing up. I want to be a man, a REAL man (a real GAY man, and not just a really GAY man).
It’s surprising to me how I relate so much to guys in wheelchairs nowadays but I feel like Jason Ritter as Kevin in the TV series Joan of Arcadia. He’s crippled. He fell down and now he’s slowly taking his life back. He wants his father and his younger brother to be especially proud of him. That’s who I want to be: Kevin.
My father sacrificed so much for me and did a lot of hard work. He endured around 3-4 years of labor to help his children. In my eyes he is a MAN, a REAL man. I want to be my father’s son and be nothing less than the man he is.
Now, my brother… I could go on about my brother, maybe I will in the near future but all my feelings and intentions towards the relationship between me and my brother can be summed up into what Kevin once said to Luke in an episode of Joan of Arcadia:
Kevin: I was the prefect big brother. Come on, admit it, I'm stronger, faster, better looking.
Luke: Well, not better looking.
Kevin: It's a reality, kid, face it. People were nice to you because you were Kevin Girardi's kid brother. Probably kept you from being beat up about hundred times.
Luke: I do seem to attract threats of violence.
Kevin: Last night, the natural order was reversed. You were the big brother. You were smarter and stronger and tougher.
Luke: And better looking?
Kevin: I'm the big brother in this family, in or out of the wheelchair, so get off of my cloud.
Luke: The cloud reference eludes me.
Kevin: Yesterday...that will not happen again.
Luke: Are you apologizing to me? No, no, of course not. Why would you? It's an explanation, and that's enough.
Kevin: If you can't get your money back, I'll re-imburse you.
Luke: Well, that's okay. Of course, yes, I can use the money. And you're fully capable.
Kevin: You're going to be proud of me again.
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>> What I did in June of 2005. I tell people it's either a rock climbing and/or car accident.
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